Okristen Stewart’s directorial debut, tailored through her from the 2011 abuse memoir through Lidia Yuknavitch, is working an excessively prime temperature, regardless that by no means precisely collapsing into outright feverishness or torpor. It’s a poetry-slam of ache and autobiographical outrage, recounting a creator’s adventure in opposition to getting better the uncooked subject material of revel in to be sifted and recycled into literary luck.
The provide day catastrophes of failed relationships, drink and medication are counterpointed with Super-8 reminiscences and epiphanies of adolescence with excessive closeups on remembered main points and wry, murmuring voiceovers. It borders on cliche a bit of, however there may be compassion and storytelling ambition right here.
Lidia herself, smartly performed through Imogen Poots, is a tender girl who was once abused in her teenage years through her clenched and livid architect father (Michael Epp) – along side her sister (Thora Birch) who steadily sacrificed herself to their father’s loathsome attentions to divert him clear of Lidia – and their mom went into depressive denial all the way through.
Lidia throws herself into being a fanatically targeted swim group champ which will get her a faculty scholarship that she messes up via booze and coke. The movie presentations how within the water she feels loose; swimming laps towards the clock provides her a function and an break out – a cancellation of id.
But now Lidia has a horrible secret: it’s not simply that she is an abuse survivor – she masturbates frequently desirous about it, and totally despises her weak-beta male boyfriend (Earl Cave) for being great and mild. (That, and being spanked through her swim trainer, may be a complicating issue for her pastime in BDSM.)
So when her inventive alternative arrives, so does a poisonous disaster of daddy problems. Her makes an attempt at writing get her the risk to take part in an experimental collaborative novel being masterminded through the counterculture legend Ken Kesey (Jim Belushi) whose pastime in her seems unsettlingly like her father’s. Is historical past repeating itself? Is degradation the fee you pay for luck in writing – or swimming – or the rest? Her personal writerly evolution is proven through the books she reads herself – Vita Sackville-West’s biography of Joan of Arc as a child, William Faulkner’s The Sound and the Fury as a scholar, after which, as a tender creator, Kathy Acker’s Empire of the Senseless.
These non-public tales and their film variations were undermined not too long ago through infamous faux memoirist JT LeRoy – whose adjust ego Savannah Knoop was once in reality performed through Kristen Stewart in a display screen model of her stricken lifestyles.
But for all that, and a few callow indie indulgences, that is an earnest and heartfelt piece of labor, and Stewart has guided robust, clever performances.