Wchicken Louise Weard started taking pictures her debut movie in 2023, she envisaged it as a handy guide a rough, 90-minute portrait of a gaggle of queer and transgender buddies in Vancouver. Now, Castration Movie, a crowdfunded camcorder epic made for lower than C$60,000 (£33,000), runs four-and-a-half hours. And that’s simply phase one. When all the magnum opus is done later this yr, Weard estimates it is going to clock in at greater than 12 hours. Take that, Béla Tarr. Watch your again, Rivette.
Not that anybody may just mistake Castration Movie for gradual cinema. “It’s not as if I’m asking you to watch farmers in a field for 20 minutes,” says the 31-year-old director over espresso in an east London cafe. Indeed no longer: the primary hour-and-a-half follows a budding “incel” as he sinks deeper into the manosphere. The narrative center of attention then switches hastily to a trans intercourse employee, Michaela “Traps” Sinclair, performed by means of Weard. Michaela’s abrasive external conceals a craving for motherhood and intimacy; she could have the tongue of Joan Rivers and the decorum of Divine, however she’s as fragile as Edith Piaf. “People are always relieved when they find out I’m nothing like Michaela,” says Weard, whose background is in Canadian underground horror. “She’s the nightmare version of me.”
The movie mixes Cassavetes-level rawness, a dazed Warholian languor and quotable banter worthy of Kevin Smith, together with a nutty dialog about Dune, in addition to a morbid Tinder date that provides most recoil. With its scenes of unsimulated intercourse, water-sports, self-harm (Weard is noticed stubbing out a cigarette on her thigh) and the graphic aftermath of surgical operation, Castration Movie’s listing of cause warnings is longer than some movies’ scripts.
It’s all shot with the similar hand held Hi8 digital camera on which Weard’s oldsters filmed house films when she was once rising up in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan. She digs it out from her bag and passes it around the desk. “Go ahead, play with the zoom,” she says. “You get a clean image where you can see the micro-expressions of what someone’s thinking.” Obeying the ones directions, I crash-zoom directly to an excessive closeup of her. Dressed in a white shirt with blonde hair pulled again, a silver nose-ring and shrewd eyes in the back of dainty glasses, she is a lifeless ringer for the sardonic 22 Jump Street big name Jillian Bell.
Many of the scenes in Castration Movie push incidents from Weard’s personal lifestyles to imagined extremes. One episode in the second one instalment presentations a girl reacting with horror when her skateboarder spouse comes out as trans and asks to be referred to as Tiffany. “I came out when I was 27,” says Weard. “I was in the middle of doing the dishes. My girlfriend at the time was an angel, so supportive and excited for me. But the film takes real-life situations and asks: what are the worst intrusive thoughts you could have in this moment? What’s the worst possible outcome?”
From this emerges its objective: to coax audiences into empathising with characters who’re their ethical, ideological and political opposites. “Castration Movie has been hailed as this important trans work,” says Weard, who solid fellow trans administrators Vera Drew (The People’s Joker) and Alice Maio Mackay (T Blockers) within the movie; Lilly Wachowski, co-creator of the Matrix franchise, additionally contributed to the crowdfunding marketing campaign. “Then the movie opens and you don’t see a single trans person on screen for the first 90 minutes.”
There is a good judgment to such reputedly perverse alternatives. “Each chapter is training the audience how to watch the next section,” she says. “Seeing this cis guy experience gender failure, you learn the beats of his story and you can apply them to Michaela, too. What I’m saying on a deeper level is that there are those at the margins who we don’t want to think about, but who are the same as us. We’re all people, right? We all share some universal experience of what it means to be human. In part two, there is a Terf and a detransitioner and an adult baby diaper lover. I want to show the shared humanity between them. They’re all a part of me. I even gave the incel my old name.”
The image’s bounce in scale from thumbnail comic strip to huge fresco happened early on. Weard was once appearing a manufacturer pal the scene by which a trans guy at the eve of getting most sensible surgical operation is eulogising the breasts that experience served him neatly, giving thank you for the entire loose beers and smokes that got here his manner on account of them. “I was fast-forwarding through the footage and my friend was, like: ‘Louise, stop. I want to watch the whole thing.’ When it was over, he said: ‘You’re not allowed to cut a fucking second of this.’ I pointed out that if I didn’t, this was going to be a 12-hour movie.’ And he said: ‘Well then, I guess you’re making a 12-hour movie.’”
That noun is essential. “Calling it Castration Movie undercuts the intimidation of the running time,” she causes. “This isn’t a film. This is definitely a movie.” The crowds who’ve been cramming into golf equipment and basements to observe it, hunkering down in beanbag chairs and ordering pizza all the way through the intermissions, appear to agree. “People tell me afterwards that it was the hardest they’ve ever laughed in a movie and the hardest they’ve ever cried. I want to keep that going. I’d love people to also feel it was the most turned on they’ve ever felt while watching a movie. Or the angriest.”
Her hopes that the image could have crossover attraction aren’t unrealistic. “In New York, we’d have, like, 100 trans women showing up to watch it together,” she says. “That never happens. Some of these girls aren’t leaving their house to do anything else that’s community-oriented. But I don’t think the movie will alienate viewers who aren’t part of that, so now it’s going out to a broader audience.” Having been noticed in the United Kingdom in competition or membership settings, it is going to play subsequent month on the Prince Charles Cinema in London – no longer within the venue’s queer strand however as a part of its Bleak Week season along such numerous titles as Trainspotting, There Will Be Blood and Watership Down.
And there’s all the time the computer possibility. The film was once launched first of all as a pay-what-you-like obtain with a C$1.50 minimal rate, and remains to be to be had in that layout. Why? “Because it should be!” Weard says blithely. “I want people to see it. I’ll have a message from someone in Brazil who can’t afford the dollar, and if they reach out I send them a free link. People in Ukraine tell me the movie means a lot to them. A trans woman in Hong Kong said it reminded her of her friends. It’s crazy to have made something so hyperspecific to my experience and to find people around the world laughing at the same jokes.”
Her worry now could be what’s going to occur as soon as she places Castration Movie to mattress. “What do I do next? I joked with a friend about getting a job doing Hallmark Christmas movies from now on. Because where else can I go after my 12-hour masterpiece?”