Sister Wives’ Kody Brown Says He ‘Didn’t Get a Chance’ to ‘Make Things Right’ with Garrison Before His Death

Kody Brown is reflecting on the place he went fallacious with son Garrison Brown after his premature dying.

As the Brown circle of relatives mirrored at the tragedy all through the Sister Wives episode airing on Sunday, May 4, Kody famous the way it used to be all “so sad.” He regarded again at the day the whole thing spread out, recalling a dialog he had together with his now ex-wife Janelle Brown, with whom he shared Garrison, about their subsequent steps.

“I remember sitting there with Janelle and I was just going, ‘Hey, I really just want to take my boy home,'” he instructed the cameras. “And so I said, ‘Let’s take him back to Wyoming and let’s bury him next to Grandma Cheryl.’ We just totally agreed that would be the right thing.”

Garrison died on March 5, 2024, on the age of 25. At the time, Kody and Janelle shared in a joint commentary, the place they stated Garrison “was a bright spot in the lives of all who knew him.”

“His loss will leave such a big hole in our lives that it takes our breath away,” they added. “We ask that you please respect our privacy and join us in honoring his memory.”

Continuing to replicate at the loss all through the TLC hit’s newest episode, Kody spoke with Robyn — who has develop into his best final spouse after his marriages to Janelle, Christine and Meri resulted in a 14-month length — whilst seated hearth about regrets he had referring to his bond with Garrison. The pair wasn’t in the most productive of puts, as Kody had problems together with his sons with Janelle over his strict COVID-19 pointers, leading to disagreements and verbal exchange struggles.

Kody and Garrison’s problems were not totally resolved prior to his dying.

“It’s just heartbreaking. Rob and I didn’t get a chance to really just make things right, just not being able to say goodbye,” Kody, 56, instructed Robyn, 46, whilst the use of Garrison’s first title, Robert. “I just don’t know what to do with his death because it’s like I’ve got to do something different because I could have had more time with him, and I thought there would be more time.”

“Everybody thinks they got more time,” he added.

Kody additionally instructed Robyn that “it just wasn’t supposed to be this way.” Additionally, as he persevered to live at the “what ifs,” Kody stated: “I’m going to what if, what if, what if to death.”

“What if I’d have called him? What if I’d have been in touch more? What if we’d have gone done more? What if, what if, what if?” he persevered. “It still makes me sad. It still makes me wonder if something could have been done. It’s the what-ifs. The what could have been. I think they just helped the mourning process.”

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Sister Wives airs Sunday at 10 p.m. ET on TLC.

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